Monday, June 30, 2008

thank you everyone!

i would like to take a second to thank everybody for the huge outpouring of support! no sooner then about 5 minutes after i posted my 'one of the worst days of my life' post, people started emailing and calling with their condolences. it really means a lot to me to know that everybody cares so much. it was with your support and caring, that i was able to step onto a basketball court again for the first time in years. i even dribbled the ball a little, before breaking down into tears because of the flashbacks.

anyway, i am touched. thank you to each and every one of you!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

my brother came to visit

and we went dragon hunting

then we ate dragon meat

we caught a baby dragon

and it was delicious

one of the worst days of my life

here's a quick story; but be warned, it's one that is really pretty pointless. i'm not even sure why i'm sharing it. whatever. it must have been a couple years ago...i used to play basketball every weekend, usually sundays, with some guys from work. and this sunday started out like any other. though from the ominous thunder, to the looming rain clouds, i should have had an inkling that something was going to go awry. terribly awry.

i usually looked forward to playing each weekend, even though clearly, i was the worst of the bunch - but that's neither here nor there. anyway, i'm guarding this freakishly tall guy, and he's pretty good. he once told me he was an 'experienced ballhandler'. naturally i say nothing, just leaving it at that - you know, to avoid any more awkward moments. i'm not judging, i'm just saying.

so the tall dude has got the ball, and somehow i manage to jar it loose. we both make a grab for the basketball, but somehow i trip over my own two feet, and fall face first. face first right into his sweaty ass. it was horrible. between the flashbacks, the teasing, the therapy sessions, and the shame, i am slowly getting ready to step on the basketball court again. i'm not sure how to truly get over something like this; but i do know one thing for sure: it had been years since the last time i cried like that.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008


i watch movies. most of us watch movies. do you ever feel like you just wasted 2 hours of your life watching a stupid movie? what if the film was jocked by a bunch of artsy fartsy film critics? then when the movie sucks, especially, i feel like i've been had. i only want a few things out of most movies i watch: mindless violence, mindless hilarity, and for the good guy to win at the end. please keep reading for my sentiments on a few movies i've viewed recently.

'no country for old men' started out so great - people were dying, it was awesome. then it ends. i mean, abruptly ends. the good guy dies, the good guy's wife dies, and the killer walks away (sorry if i spoiled it for you). maybe i didn't get it. but more likely, it was probably just stupid. my guess is that the writer spent most of his/her creative juice on the plot, and was drained dry by the time it came for the end. i was bummed to see a movie that was so good, get ruined by a lame ending. but hey, at least there were a bunch of sweet death scenes.

we watched 'babel' the other night. i didn't find this one as bad as the other one, just kind of lame. throughout the course of the movie, we see how a bunch of people's lives are affected by other people through both direct and indirect actions. it was kind of clever, but if you think about the characters from the start of the movie, and then look at them at the end of the movie...not a lot has changed. yeah, the mexican maid is deported, but she was in the US illegally. yeah, the wife got blasted, but she lived and she's back to her upper crust life of luxury. yeah, the dad sold a rifle that was used in the shooting, but that's not what he meant for the rifle to be used for. after the movie ended, i felt the need to reflect: i just watched a movie where some grouchy broad gets shot, and some dad stands on his balcony next to his naked teenage daughter. i'm over it.

maybe i'm an idiot, but by the time i die, i'm going to write my own movie; and it'll probably go something like this: the hero prospers due to hard work and having great values. things are going great until a bunch of bad guys/aliens/monsters/whatever appear in town and kill a bunch of people (in a bloody/horrific way), but the hero avenges them by destroying the villains. life goes on, and everybody is happy. the end.

i thought this would be a good first post